Why me no longer shipping chair has not a single thing to do with Dan and Blair:

I was once a Chuck and Blair supporter (and when I ship, I ship hard), the second after I saw Victor/Victrola I was all about them together. I forgave Chuck for the things he said to her after Nate and her broke up. I forgave him for leaving her to fly off to Europe on her own after the wedding where he said some amazing words to win her back. I forgave him pushing her away when she finally told him she loved him.

I forgave it all and more and I was so happy when we got to the first half of season three. They were in a monogamous, supportive and mostly trusting relationship for twelve episodes. Then Chuck’s mom came into the picture and things got shaky but I was still on board for four more episodes and then the Inglorious Basstards episode happened and I spent that next five episodes not sure where I stood on chair but knowing I just wanted Blair to be happy. So there I am I’m all pumped up and excited about them reconciling in the season finale only for it to all go to hell.

I started season four feeling heartbroken at the loss of my ship, I couldn’t watch the last scene of Double Identity without bawling my eyes out. I’m talking full on sob-fest “I can’t breathe through my nose where in the world are the tissues” crying, and then I made myself watch it at least 20 (if not more) times, and while I didn’t know it then, I can honestly say that that was the end of chair for me. I cried it out of my system. They had had their chance but after that I was rooting for Blair and true happiness.

I didn’t immediately start shipping her with anyone, I just didn’t ship her with Chuck. I watched the first half of season four with an mostly impartial eye, and so I was happy when she began to break out of that dark place she’s fallen into towards the mid-season finale.

I was again getting what I’ve wanted all along since way back when I purchased the first book in 2002, Blair/Happiness. I do believe she was happy for that period of time while her and Chuck’s relationship worked. Its been the afterward that’s the problem for me, the treating her like property, the sleeping with someone who was bound to hurt her, the trying to ruin her education, and then just the over all number of women who he was so willing to have “forever” with because he wasn’t with her at the moment.

I just can’t do them together anymore. I tried. I’m a really emotionally involved shipper, and C/B broke my heart when it ended for me, but I just can’t go back there again. To quote Blair herself,

“I loved Chuck for so long and he ended up treating me like something he owned rather than something he earned. It destroyed me. I thought I’d never get over it. But I finally found a way out of the darkness and you can too.” 

Now if only the writers would remember the many times Blair has remembered the darkness Chuck brings into her life, honestly that they bring to each other. They BOTH should have someone who brings light into their lives. They need the balance, a fresh path. If they were meant to be together, they wouldn’t end every time they tried.

(Look out for my entry on why I love Dan and Blair together and how Chuck wasn’t even a factor.)