And This Is How I See It...
On How This Last Season Is The Worst

My long time friend is a Chair fan (I don’t understand either) and she wrote this on my wall this morning:

As I was watching GG last night, I couldn’t help but wonder what your reactions were like as you watched it. Did you see the previews for next week?

Before I knew it my fingers were responding and this is what I said:


This was the worst episode in the history of the show it felt like, and with a season full of horribly written episodes that’s saying something. I’m just so mad at this season. Like at the start of the season I was pissed at how they train wrecked dair at the end of season five after promises that they would be together at the end of the season for sure, but this season has been an insult to anyone who actually was a long time true fan of the show.

The amount of retconning they have done this season is like a slap in the face to people who actually remember what they’ve had characters do and say to this point. It’s like they wrote this season pretending seasons 3, 4 and 5 never happened and it’s hugely disappointing. If I still shipped chair I would be pissed at this final season. The fact that they haven’t been together in a full on happy relationship since season three before he stopped trusting her, and then sold her for a hotel. It’s like if you were going to give them endgame at least let them actually be together for the last season.

But no, instead fans have been forced to watch Chuck continue on this bullshit man hunt against his father to take back a company that Bart built from the ground up and rightfully belongs to him. Bart is a horrible person, but Chuck’s war was so dumb. So Bart fakes his own death to protect himself from going to prison after his oil dealings, then comes out of hiding to give blood to save Chuck’s life after his fatal car crash, then comes back to his life and takes HIS company back, and Chuck sees that as taking everything from him? Like his still had his precious Empire Hotel and he could have had Blair all season but then again we know that Bass Industries and the Empire are more important to Chuck than Blair so I suppose that part adds up.

Ugh, and then for Blair to be so pissed at Dan because he slept with Serena when she had left him hanging to run to Chuck and then to thank Chuck for never sleeping with Serena as if he didn’t try and rape her in the pilot, and then wasn’t sexually inappropriate the entirety of the first season is gross.

For Blair to be so made at Dan for making a mistake, and then stand there and not just watch Chuck let Bart fall but to choose not to help Bart herself, that just says so much about how the writers really don’t care about these characters at all.

Ugh, and don’t even get me started on the absurdity of them expecting us to believe it makes any sense for Dan to still want Serena after the last two seasons. I saw the preview for next week, and I am not exaggerating when I say I cannot wait for this show to finally be over. I should be sad, I should be hoping that if enough fans rally around it that we can bring it back. I should be enjoying this last season, but the writers have made that impossible.

I would have rather the show ended at 524 than have had to endure this last season!

On How The GGWriters Ruined Gossip Girl: Chuck Edition.

It was one thing when the Gossip Girl writers had just decided to destroy Dair, because that was heartbreaking from a shipping standpoint, but from a character standpoint what really troubles me is the lengths these writers are going to, to vilify Dan in an effort to make Chuck look like “the good guy” it is so disgusting.

The fact that they actually had the nerve to say that Dan is soulless and for that accusation to come from Chuck of all people makes me literally throw up a little in my mouth. I can still taste it, and honestly that’s how this entire season has felt, like that extra shot that you know you shouldn’t have had because you can feel it trying to creep back up. Like the difference between a hangover and a headache.

Chuck Bass is not the kind of man people should be encouraged to root for, or to hope gets the girl. He is a womanizer who treats the “love of his life” like property that he can literally trade or claim ownership of when it suits his current agenda.

He’s been drunkenly violent, degrading, and has treated all other women who have had the misfortune of being in a relationship with him better than he’s treated Blair.They never had to deal with being sold for a hotel with the expectation being that they perform sexual favors for his uncle (someone who ended up having a sexually transmitted disease no less) They never had to be compared to a horse, in their darkest hour after he outed personal intimate details of their sexual history to Gossip Girl because she chose someone else. They never had to deal with him sleeping with their enemy because they were late to meet him, and then have him attempt to propose to them hours later. They never had him work to take away everything that has been important to them, in the afters of their relationship. In fact they were fortunate enough to never get thought of again. If only Blair had been as lucky.  

Plus, insult to injury, the fact that we’re expected to root for him in his revenge plot to take down his father for taking back his own company that he created from the ground up, a company that Chuck nearly lost more than once and almost destroyed is laughable.

Chuck still seemingly owns the Empire Hotel the ONLY thing he purchased and started to build that actually belongs to him. If he invested as much energy, time and money into building his own true empire, instead of trying to steal back his fathers he may actually have accomplished something by now.

Instead we’re forced to endure him stringing Blair along until he’s vanquished his father. The writers actually used that word, as if he’s some superhero out to defeat the bad guy, when he’s just another bad guy fighting someone marginally worse.

To think this is only one way the writers have gone about wrecking not just the final season, but honestly the show as a whole. I’ll cover the other ways another day.

Are We Watching The Same Show? (Klaroline)

Are we watching the same show? It’s a question I’ve found myself asking when it comes to a lot of my fandoms. Sometimes it’s almost insane how completely opposite opinions and interpretations are.

Most recently I’ve found myself actually wondering what it is people see when they look at the klaroline ship. It was one thing shipping Klaroline last summer, before they’d even had a single about of interaction on screen. Different again when Klaus first began to show an interest in her, and a totally different thing now that we’re once again in the summer waiting for the return of another season.

Everyone has a different view on the ship and how they’d wished it had unfolded, and there are a number of people who wish that Klaus had brought Caroline to the dark side instead of the way things have been unfolding. I am not of this number, in fact I think it would be completely out of character for this to happen in the future.

Klaus is attracted to Caroline’s inner light, her strength, the parts of her that shine so brilliantly with her humanity. He wouldn’t seek to diminish that part of her, if anything he’d work to be worthy of it. His entire life he’s lived with the knowledge that his “father” hated him and for the last thousand years was on the run from him and his attempts to kill him. Then most recently he’s had to deal with his mother’s continuous attempts to kill not only him but everyone he holds most dear.

Klaus is the way he is because of a lack of love in his life. I don’t see him trying to bring the one person he’s romantically interested in down into the gutter with him. He’s trying to get out himself!

Death of Dair or How I May Never Emotionally Recover

I’m still emotionally compromised as I write this… I still can’t believe the train wreck they caused to dair last night. I feel like I was given two adorable puppies, like the kind you can still fit in the palm of one hand, that were handed to me, and I was given their love, and I grew an unbreakable bond with them, and for the last year we spent time together. Then the person who handed them to me, broke into my house, tied me up, glued my eyes open and brutally murdered them in front of my eyes and then looked at me and said “It seems like it was all for nothing huh?” and walked away to go hide in Hollywood where I can’t reach them…

Okay… I know that seemed harsh… but that is what it feels like… they took this amazing ship, this amazing couple, turned them into best friends. BEST FRIENDS and then turn them into lovers, and then as soon as they were together, they said “FUCK YOU!”

They gave us parallels to their earlier relationship, they gave us parallels to their previous relationships with other people. They gave us heartfelt lines like “you’ll have me” and “always” and then they said “Yeah, it was really all just a prop for an abusive relationship. You see we needed to contrast a loving relationship with one that was emotionally damaging so she could see that she doesn’t actually want to be happy! That was the point! Blair doesn’t need happiness when you have a great love! See? Do you see?”

I seriously want to throw up… I want to quit this show so badly… I really do… I have never wanted to give up on a show so much… but I wont… I’ll serve eleven more hours of time… I’ll do it. I’ll endure and maybe… maybe all I can hope for is that when it’s all over that I still like at least some of the characters…

I honestly can’t write about anything else that happened in the finale yet… and I do have an opinion and lots to say on that stuff, but this murder of dair is still too fresh and too close to home… I may need a few more days.

TVD Finale Review: Stuck In A Glass Case of Emotion!

Once the title credit flashed across the screen and I realized the horror show this episode was inflicting on my emotional stability was finally over. I could breathe again!

First things first let us all HIGH FIVE one another that Elena is FINALLY a vampire! This means that even though Klaus is alive, his desire for an army of hybrids is also kaput! (they did recover the blood bags her took from her right?) Also any leverage he had over them kind of comes to an end. I can’t wait to see who the next enemy is going to be. Now we know for sure Klaus is their bloodline, so he can’t die or our whole cast dies. (Also who’s blood turned Elena??? Damon???)

Omg I am feeling so many things at once and i’m sure this is going to be a mess of incoherency but all of it… WOW!

Bonnie: Didn’t hate her this episode. Possibly because she was barely present, but also because flashbacks made me remember I liked her before she went all “I hate all vampires” and then she saved Klaus so brownie points. I think though, the way she was talking about not letting anyone control her anymore. Well I liked her for that instant and I hope that they bring back a character next season that is less easy to hate! :]]

Tyler: Omg I cried when Klaus got dagger-ed I felt totally lost when I realized that I wasn’t going to see Joseph Morgan on the show next season, but it wasn’t until Caroline showed up on screen that I turned to my sister and said “Omg Tyler” and then a full on sob fest ensued where I realized both of my babies were gone. It was utterly heartbreaking. Until I was given my battered heart back… 

Matt/Jeremy: I wanted to high five Matt when he drugged her! I was like FINALLY!!! People needed to do that seasons ago! :]] I loved them doing what they needed in order to protect her! So very Damon of them! :]] Kind of hate that we didn’t see Matt to know if he even survived Martyr Elena dying for him. I really hope he’s alive still. Glad that Alaric is finally free of his alter, and is still going to be there for Jeremy! :]]

Caroline: She wasn’t really there much. I need to rewatch the episode again, but was that Klaus in Tyler, who kissed her in that last scene… because… I think i’m going to count it! :]] First Klaroline Kiss!!! (Sorta) :]] Super excited that my ship still has the potential to carry on!!! :]]

Council: Lets just say I don’t like that we don’t know what exactly they know!!! :// Plus hey at least now that originals can overpower them, its not like they can kill them! :]]

Okay let’s get down to it! The triangle… it was at its end for .57 seconds and then Julie took as all for a loop! :]] I love that the reason Elena chose Stefan was because she met him first and now as a vampire all previous compelling will wear off and she’s going to realize that she actually made and liked Damon first, and that he told her she actually wanted the kind of love she told Matt she has for Damon PLUS she’ll remember when he told her he loved her! It’s going to be awesome!!! :]]

If this didn’t confirm all the reasons I feel like she should choose Damon! He loves her enough to let her hate him if it means she’s alive. I know a lot of people have been having trouble with understanding the difference between them and that is just it. Stefan lets her do whatever the hell she wants even if it means she could die, and Damon loves her too much to let that happen. Do you really think that Damon would have let her tell him to take Matt? No, way. That is the difference. Stefan doesn’t love her enough for me if he was willing to let her die. (Considering he didn’t know she had vampire blood in her system!)

I can’t wait for the impact all of this is going to have on everyone! I mean! Omg! Next season!!! :]]

Is Rebekah finally going to get to attend a school dance? Is she going to get to fall for the jock and actually LIVE for the first time in centuries?

Will Elijah stay for a bit and let me enjoy his beautiful face?

Will Bonnie become a character I no longer hate. Is it possible?

Am I going to get the benefit of a Klaus/Caroline/Tyler triangle? Because it’ll be totally awesome!!??

Will Jeremy get a love interest?

Can Matt and Rebekah just do it already!

and How will Elena handle not only being a vampire but also the truth of all her feelings??? OMG Please dont tell me that martyr Elena is about to get multiplied!!! I only just thought of that… I’m prepared to continue hating Elena… bracing myself now!!! 

Gosh… I know this whole thing is completely disorganized… but so are my feelings after this season finale! I think I may be inspired to write a fanfiction after this!!!

Gossip Girl Blast: Serena van der Woodsen chokes on her own hypocrisy!

I literally just hit the stop button on tonight’s episode of Gossip Girl (It Girl, Interrupted)and while I need to write this, I apologize in advance because I’m still heated!

Serena van der Woodsen is possibly (and when I say possibly I mean she is) the most annoying character on my TV! She is wishy-washy, a hypocrite and entirely too self righteous for someone with her track record! I would love to go into a case by case break down but that would require scenes from over 100 episodes since she can’t go more than two scenes without at least one of those traits popping up.

Before we delve into tonight’s episode and how I wish the “A” team from PLL would take out Serena like they did Allison, lets back track to maybe the biggest hypocritical thing Serena has ever done, by becoming Gossip Girl. Did her lack of brain cells cause her to forget that three months ago she wanted to “take Gossip Girl down” for ruining her life and those around her, only to find herself in the position to do just that, and instead decide to the opposite.

Then with tonight’s episode she decides: “Oh I don’t want to be on Gossip Girl anymore!” “Oh I want someone else to be the new It Girl!” “Oh I think I’ll set my cousin up and force her into an It Girl title she doesn’t want because I don’t want it anymore!” Only to get all of that and then realize “Omg! this mean’s I’ll be irrelevant and I didn’t want that when I graduated and I just remembered I don’t actually want that now!”

I’m like seriously? Please you psycho beeyatch can you please pull a Marissa Cooper and get killed off the show. I would not mind one bit the writers recycling that storyline. In fact I’m crossing my fingers that it happens in the finale that is apparently Serena-centric!

I haven’t even mentioned her getting pissed at Lola for “using her”, when she was using Lola the entire episode! Can someone please slap this girl with a reality check!

Serena van der Woodsen, the character you hate, and hate that you even have to exert the energy to hate!

Look up Serena van der Woodsen in the dictionary:
hypocrisy: noun ( pl. -sies) the practice of claiming to have moral standards or beliefs to which one’s own behavior does not conform.

(Even my Serenate love is no where near as large as my dislike of Serena… Nate can find someone else to be happy with! Beside I only really ship them because of SBC’s The Date, and TV Serena is no where near as likeable as the Serena from a fanfic!)

As I See It: On How My Mother Is Delusional

She just finished watching The Princess Dowry and she actually said “eww” and then tried to say “its not going to happen” and when I was like “it IS happening, its on your screen right now” and she was like “Its over before it even started” and I’m like “wth one month from now its going to be HAPPENING THEN TOO” seriously I knew my mother was fighting joining the dair fandom but REALLY???

Its like the crazy people who infest our Dair tag have taken over my own mothers mind. The worst is she’s just like them, she refuses to have an actual conversation about it because she is fighting realizing that she’s wrong. I’m almost scared to go to sleep… but seriously if my own mother supports Chuck I fear for what she’ll consider acceptable behavior in any guy I ever start dating. I need someone who isn’t going to approve of anything Chuck-Like.

I’m going to force her to discuss this with me later this week. I’m going to print out a time line and parallel references and quotes from the show, from the writers, from the producers, anything and everything to get to her snap out of it. She loves Seth and Summer, she needs to realize this is the Seth and Summer of the UES!

OH MY GOD MY MOTHER IS A CHAIR SHIPPER AND I FEAR FOR MY LIFE.

Both my sister and I ship Dair. So thankfully we didn’t get that gene!

As I See It: On Dan and Blair Actually Happening. AHHH!!!

I just finished the latest episode of Gossip Girl, The Princess Dowry and I am so excited about what I saw that I have to get out my thoughts immediately! I haven’t even ventured into the Dair tag yet. That’s my next stop.

This entry is going to be only about Dan and Blair, I will probably write out my thoughts on the episode itself later because boy did shit hit the fan tonight. All the stories are going to come back with a fresh new direction.

Okay so Dan and Blair, first let me just say that I love how it feels like we’re enjoying the beginning of a brand new show. It’s like they are really taking their quote to heart “beginning now, the rest is just the prologue, it all starts here.” It feels like this is the start of the show again, and it’s fresh and new.

I loved that the preview for when the show comes back was basically only about Dan and Blair. I loved it! Watching the two of them, it was like seeing Seth and Summer, and I just know its going to be awesome.

I feel like my words are coming out all over the place, but I’m just so excited about everything. That last scene! It was like the season three finale, only it was so them. I just love how Dan and Blair are having so many parallels to their opposing ship, only its like these newer versions are almost ten times better.

I loved how she instantly forgave him in the beginning when she finds out he sent that video. The thing we were worried would be the end of them, was something she just brushed off. I am just beyond excited to begin watching their relationship.

As I See It: On How Dair Is So Amazing It Cause’s An Actual Burning In My Chest

The ache in my chest watching the Dair kiss from Cross Rhodes on repeat about 20 times just now has left me with tears in my eyes. Every time I see him go to kiss her back, the ache in the center of my chest gets stronger. It’s like he’s breathing her in, like he was a drowning man who finally kicked his way back up to the surface and her kiss is the oxygen he needs to live. That is how intense that kiss is for me and my fragile shipper heart.

I, as many of you may know haven’t solely shipped Dan and Blair since season one episode four, though I like to brag that my friend shipped it and I was made very much aware that others did as well. I personally fell into a magical love affair with the Dan and Blair last January when the show returned for the second part of its fourth season.

They had an amazingly witty dry humor about them that was made even more amazing by the fact that they actually cared about each other and were okay with showing that. Dan once again helping Blair when it came to the relationship with her mother, (a theme I feel has stayed consistent on a show with a lot of inconsistencies.) Blair helping him to finally see the light when it came to Serena and how he’d always come second to whatever drama or guy or most times both, were happening in the moment.

I adored the growth and the slow build up to their denial of any potential feelings and then the show did the unthinkable and it went on a six week hiatus, leaving me at the height of “what happens next” when it came to this new love story they’d dropped in my lap.

Six weeks of fanfictions and fanvids and making friends with fellow shippers who dared to dair. It was almost impossible for me not to become one hundred percent committed to their love story. The parallels to great movies, the assurance from producers that the story of Dan and Blair was far from over and in fact five years in the making, the natural chemistry between Penn and Leighton. It all contributed to me realizing that they are each other soulmates.

These two people from two different worlds, with so much different about them in personality and background who have the most organic relationship that is built on this common interest  in film, and art. These two people who basically couldn’t stand each other because they thought they were two different realizing they are exactly what the other has been looking for. They build each other up in a way neither of their former relationships ever truly could.

They see each others dark sides and at the same time recognize and build up the light sides. Dan and Blair is the kind of discovery love story many of us long to experience. There was no dropping of it in our laps unexpectedly it was build upon a strong foundation to give it real staying power.

I am more confident that I’ve ever been with any of my ships that this, Dan and Blair together in a strong and lasting relationship is how the show is going to end. There will be ups, there will be downs but they will be endgame.

As I See It: Shipping Chair and Not Shipping It Anymore

Why me no longer shipping chair has not a single thing to do with Dan and Blair:

I was once a Chuck and Blair supporter (and when I ship, I ship hard), the second after I saw Victor/Victrola I was all about them together. I forgave Chuck for the things he said to her after Nate and her broke up. I forgave him for leaving her to fly off to Europe on her own after the wedding where he said some amazing words to win her back. I forgave him pushing her away when she finally told him she loved him.

I forgave it all and more and I was so happy when we got to the first half of season three. They were in a monogamous, supportive and mostly trusting relationship for twelve episodes. Then Chuck’s mom came into the picture and things got shaky but I was still on board for four more episodes and then the Inglorious Basstards episode happened and I spent that next five episodes not sure where I stood on chair but knowing I just wanted Blair to be happy. So there I am I’m all pumped up and excited about them reconciling in the season finale only for it to all go to hell.

I started season four feeling heartbroken at the loss of my ship, I couldn’t watch the last scene of Double Identity without bawling my eyes out. I’m talking full on sob-fest “I can’t breathe through my nose where in the world are the tissues” crying, and then I made myself watch it at least 20 (if not more) times, and while I didn’t know it then, I can honestly say that that was the end of chair for me. I cried it out of my system. They had had their chance but after that I was rooting for Blair and true happiness.

I didn’t immediately start shipping her with anyone, I just didn’t ship her with Chuck. I watched the first half of season four with an mostly impartial eye, and so I was happy when she began to break out of that dark place she’s fallen into towards the mid-season finale.

I was again getting what I’ve wanted all along since way back when I purchased the first book in 2002, Blair/Happiness. I do believe she was happy for that period of time while her and Chuck’s relationship worked. Its been the afterward that’s the problem for me, the treating her like property, the sleeping with someone who was bound to hurt her, the trying to ruin her education, and then just the over all number of women who he was so willing to have “forever” with because he wasn’t with her at the moment.

I just can’t do them together anymore. I tried. I’m a really emotionally involved shipper, and C/B broke my heart when it ended for me, but I just can’t go back there again. To quote Blair herself,

“I loved Chuck for so long and he ended up treating me like something he owned rather than something he earned. It destroyed me. I thought I’d never get over it. But I finally found a way out of the darkness and you can too.” 

Now if only the writers would remember the many times Blair has remembered the darkness Chuck brings into her life, honestly that they bring to each other. They BOTH should have someone who brings light into their lives. They need the balance, a fresh path. If they were meant to be together, they wouldn’t end every time they tried.

(Look out for my entry on why I love Dan and Blair together and how Chuck wasn’t even a factor.)